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Definetly fucked up So last night was one of those nights I just wish I could have stayed home for. I wanted to go back to virginia, curl up in my bed and have a long talk with my wonderful mother. I didnt want to be there, with them. I couldnt even look at her, especially after what he had told me. Its fucked up, this story keeps playing over and over and over again. Megan likes a guy. Thinks the guy likes her. Megan figures out one way or another that he doesnt. Megan is forced to sit in the same room while the guy gropes another girl. Megan hates the room. So I got drunk, and I was able to handle it, or just "deal" with it. I put on an act, and it went over well. The girl had no idea. The guy had no idea. Only I knew how much I was hurting. This is the reason I hate girls. Chris, one of the only females I trust and respect with all of my heart, told me last night that she's never had to experience unrequited love, and she was sorry I had. It's sad when I wonder which guy she is talking about. It could be many guys actually. Oh yeah, and the talking to Neil didnt go over as well as I had planned. We talked, dont get me wrong, but about random things. I did kind of realize what hurt me the most about Lance coming up. It was all about me having to think about how messed up my life is in comparison to the life that I had when I was close with Lance. Other than that though, I still dont have a person I can fully spill my guts out to. Justin did say he loved me today. Which was nice....I guess. It was after a conversation and he said he loved how I listened to him. Definetly a quarter life crisis. |
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