White Rose

last first kiss...maybe
11:05 p.m. - Saturday, Dec. 05, 2009

So, tonight was my first kiss with Stephen. Admittedly, I was a little tipsy and I had sort of planned it, but it was perfect.

Let me give you a little background.

About two years ago, my mom told me about a reading she had with a psychic that she and I have trusted. This was the same psychic that told me I had cocker spaniels in my life when my two best friends at the time both had a cocker spaniel. My mom told me that Elizabeth, the psychic, had told her that I was going to meet the one I will be with for the rest of my life in 02 or 03/2009. He was going to be, not a hippy per say, but different than what mom and dad expected. He was going to be attracted to me, and I would like him too. She said that I would at first be hesitant or not sure, but I would eventually realize he was the right one for me. And he would find me anywhere I decided to live, like in Maine or Virginia.

So in the back of my mind, I have kept that for the past 2 years. I have been waiting, and waiting, and waiting. Maybe it was foolish to hope that Elizabeth was right, but I just kept hoping she would prove to be right.

So, after march 2009 ended, my hopes were crushed. If elizabeth was wrong, how do I know I will ever find someone to be happy with?

Then in the first week of april, stephen sent me a myspace message.

I talked with him online several times and decided to meet him in real life. He was one year ahead of me in high school and knew several of my friends so I figured it was safe.

The first time I saw his face, I knew I would be very comfortable with him. He has a very nice face and his background is very similar to mine...in many ways.

So when I moved to virginia (for reasons I dont want to discuss right now) I decided to start dating him. Our personalities meshed completely and I genuinely liked him. I had some reservations, like the fact he is a virgin, but other than that...lets just say I havent felt this way about a guy since...my first boyfriend. I like his personality and I am attracted to him. Not in a purely sexual sense either. I feel like I could have a future with him.

I am not going to tell him about the reading until we have dated for a long time. Maybe not even then. I just worry he will get the wrong idea, that I chose him cause I felt obligated to. Trust me, if I didnt like him, I would not be dating him right now....I have been down that road before on both ends of the spectrum and it doesnt work out.

He could be the one. I dont know.

For right now, he makes me very happy. We have been dating since 11/24/09 and we kissed for the first time tonight. He first kissed me on the cheek, I reciprocated, and then I decided to just go for it and kiss him on the lips. It was very sweet and romantic...and it just made me very happy.

He makes a girl with commitment issues want to be by his side for a long time.

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