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Long talks with Neil Remember I mentioned how my life goes through patterns. I always have the same role, the good friend, the listener. Its erodes my heart little by little to listen, and say "That's awesome" while thinking "Why the hell are you doing this?" Today's version of the events is brought to us by Neil...lets just say that he is doing something that I would never ever ever do. It would be over the second I heard about it. He has different values though, and I respect that... Maybe this is Karma for that night in the hotel with cory and Justin. Cory has the same values as me, and Justin didnt...definetly didnt. I went against my values and fucked up. I dont want that to happen to neil. But I dont want to have another Johanna incident. I would never hear the end of it. I am going to end up running back to cory...even though we basically have nothing left. Thats what I do, I run away if I have a problem. I always tell myself that I am changing and taking control of my life, but its basically running away. I think Im getting sick to top it all off. My throat hurts, and I have achy legs. Thats not good. |
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